i get to leave soon!

I will be flying to see aaron moreno.

he is a pal.

I hope to see the Grand Canyon while Im there… he lives 6 hours away from it! haha!

and then I fly to Alberta.

Betty T is getting married to an american boy, Sam. It’s wonderful.

I love the people in alberta and I couldnt be more happy to spend time with all of them!

I’m ready to go.

I dont want to work anymore… I dont want to live here anymore…. I dont want to be in this house anymore.

 

watch this.

 

i cannot stay

As sure as the floor ‘neath my toes,
And somehow not surprised
That I was superimposed
Somehow in this life
And if my friends and my foes
Would just drop me a line
That’d be nice

You see love is a drink
That goes straight to my head
And time is a lover
And I’m caught in her stead
And the sentiment there follows me
Straight to my bed through the night

I’ve got my life in a suitcase
And ready to run run run away
I’ve got no time
’cause I’m always trying to run run run away
’cause everyday it feels like it’s only a game
I’ve got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase

What could be an anchor here
With a storm on the rise
When you’re never meant to see so clear
When smoke gets in your eyes
And the man in the moon
Never makes his replies understood?

I’ve got my life in a suitcase
And ready to run run run away
I’ve got no time
’cause I’m always trying to run run run away
’cause everyday it feels like it’s only a game
I’ve got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase

For a moment I was warm and the world made sense
For a moment here this storm had no consequence

I’ve got my life in a suitcase
And ready to run run run away
I’ve got no time
’cause I’m always trying to run run run away
’cause everyday it feels like its only a game
I’ve got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase

Copeland- The day I lost my voice

 

 

Dear friends. This blog knows very little of my life these days. i dont even know why, but i just stopped writing on it. Life has not been boring… life has been great.

Where to begin. Im leaving.

I’m always leaving.

I found a new home but I’ve got a while until i can live there.

I am in love with Nashville. I love the people. I love the air. I love the place.
But before I can get there i need to work a little bit more, fly to Albuquerque and run around for a week, then fly to Aberta and run around for 2 weeks and watch people i love get married, and then home to work a little bit more.

And then nashville.

 

While i was in Nashville God opened my eyes to so many things. I had been so big on just living alone and making sure i didnt need anyone. I wanted indepence in a bad way. Then i got there and God decided it was time for a challenge. live with people. eat with people. laugh and love and dance with people. I was always a social person but when it came down to it, at the end of the day i wanted to go to my own place that had my own room and all MY stuff!

Who am I that i deserve my own room and all these things. i get that i worked for them all but thats not the point.

God doesnt want this to be my life. God doesnt want me to be afraid of others.

I need to stop worrying and just Love.

Love love LOVE love LOve love!

 

Its nuts that God has called me to Nashville. Its weird that is all happened and I didn’t understand why.

Then when i got home i found out.

Everything has changed. Nothing is the same anymore.

All my friends are getting married, or in relationships. Or people just have other things to do.

God worked it all out. he knew it was time for me to be elsewhere.

And its somewhere that I just fit in better.

somewhere that challenges me and helps me live out my dreams.

Nashville.

And then who knows how long I will be there.

hah!

But for now i need to focus on the fact that 2 of my best friends are getting married.

oh man!

2 weddings in 1 month. plus a bunch of other weddings in there.

plus trying to figure out screenings for my friends brandt film!

 

ok. well time to do something else.

more to tell later

 

 

 

it’s coming

i think i need to start writing here again.

you have missed out on a lot.

everything has changed

Nothing of me is original.

I am the combined effort of everybody I’ve

ever known.

-Chuck Palahnuik

Birdcage Religion

So slowly I’m losing
who I’ve sworn to be.
a promise in pencil
that years have made so hard to read.
I’ve spent my life building walls
brick by brick and bruise by bruise…
a birdcage religion that whispered me to sleep.

but time is spinning silk
that coils ruthlessly;
with the devil’s patience,
it binds my hands so quietly
that soon it becomes a part of me.

so soften these edges and straighten out my tie.
and help me remember
the hope that i have compromised.

please be a broken record for me.

-Sleeping at Last

unsatisfied.

I haven’t been writing. Im busy/lazy!

Updates.

Everyone got married

Eric and Laura

Tim and Katie

Adam and Linsday

I just have one more wedding to go this summer. Nate and Kate.

Everyone I know is getting married, about to get engaged, having kids, and I’m going the opposite way!

ohhh wellll!

Then there was my 21st birthday.

it was amazing! I had it at my mom’s house and the band Life in Sound played.

They did such a great job and made me extra happy! so many people came out and I felt tres loved!

But the cops came and told the band they couldnt play anymore! BOO! noise complaint!

The next day there was no mess and life was awesome!

But then on saturday night as i was walking to work in the dark a man started following me telling me he was going to take me. not awesome. I got on my phone and started running. I passed cops and told them.

In the end I got a ride to work.

My new claim to fame:

I didnt know this was happening until just moments before the camera dude came in. ohhh boy!

and now I am getting many text message about my face being all over.

just what I need! haha!

And last big news!

Im going to nashville to see my friends!

september 13-22!

Im beyond excited for this trip! i have been working too hard and need to get away for a while! This trip is going to be too good!

Lots more has happened in my life but I cant tell it all.. because like I said.. Im busy/lazy!

PEACE!

I’m not going anywhere tonight, because of something said.
I know, I know, it was meant well, but it still hurt like hell.
Its OK, its alright its just that I’m a little tired of fading interest,
of boys and girls.
You know me and, you know me and I wanna say,
I’m gonna say, I’m not the same, maybe in time.
I’m not making promises in life cause of something I did to my,
best friend, that was way back when.
Not anything was everything then.
I know it’s not fair to the fairest of them all (you know who you are).
I’ve got your picture on a mirror on my wall.
I know you and, I know you and,
but you wanna say in the worst of ways that I’m afraid and maybe too late.
I’m not going anywhere tonight cause I don’t want to, I don’t have to.
It’s my right to be a fucking baby sometimes.

Owen- I’m not going anywhere tonight

Scene fest!

Scene fest was yesterday.

It was raining… a lot!

Lots of bands. lots of friends.

Everlea ruled. Steroes was avoided. Lifestory: monologue owned.

I spent most of the day hanging with Jesse and Derek. they are in a band called Life in Sound and they are pretty darn good if I must say so myself.

this is a short clip of them

That is my whole life.